have i fail being the eldest of the family..
am i a sister in the first place in your heart..
or am i just a sister in name..
why..do i always fail to get your respect..
i mean..all i did fer you..
doesnt it impact you at all..
all the effort and time..
all the fun and laughter..
and the screaming and shouting..
all the things we have done together..
why..why cant i just gain your respect..
why muz you always make it seem that you are older and betta..
is zit becos you have gain more achievement then mi..
is zit becos you are most successful then mi..
is zit becos i will do your biding..
why..can you just tell mi the reason..
so i can be a betta sister..
a sister that you will respect..

mummy is also worried..
worried fer everyone..
including the baby in the stomach whom might have some problems..
she is in a whirl..
why cant you stop your nonsense so i wun shout at you..
why cant you just make things easier fer us in the family..
why cant you come about to the fact that everyone loves you..
instead of thinking everyone thinks you are wrong..
i remember that daddy say to mi once..

"give him a chance to show his good side..so just forgive what he have done to you..love him..one day you will noe that your brother is actually good..not as bad as wad you think he is now.."

i tried..i ignore..
but i failed..
cos you are always doing some things that will drive mi crazy..
therefore making everyone just shout at you..

in mi heart..
i will always remember the happy moments we had together when we are young..
i can nv forget the character you had last time..
though we were young..but there was always forgiveness,respect and love in those days..
no matter how hard we fought..we wud forgive each other..
how i will that that moments will apply now..
will it..will it not..

mi dear brother..
no matter how hard you taunt mi..
scold mi..
just remember that i am always here to help..
to love you and respect you..
not to blame you for all the wrongdoings..
if there was any point of time i did you wrong..
i hope you forgive mi..
cos i wish that we will nv ever qurarrel with each other again..